alrighty, went to the acjc funorama expecting to see some eyecandy (hey, i am permitted to have some fun aren't i?)...sadly, there was a dearth of cand(Y)dates at the fair(muahaha, i'm getting quite good at this abyssmal punning thing..*collective groan*) , but the reputedly hottest guy in sch went ard with the words "spank me" slapped across his ass..unfortunately, i did not get to see this ... but, judging fr lucinda's response (she gave him 12 out of 10), he's gotta be pretty hot...

anyway, had an empowering talk with sher, which prompted her much delayed awakening.. today's the first time i've ever heard of her volunteering to do some charity work..she's made a list of all her goals (realistic ones, if i might add), and she promised to try to be more socially aware...yeah, sher used to be so confined in her own personal sphere, i mean, it's bad enough she's got no clue as to who Dick Cheney is, but : "Blair?? Hmmm... sounds familiar, that guy.." just takes the cake. glad she's taking a more active role in her own life. inspired me to be more determined..
1.)shall not be shallow ie judging ppl based on their looks/sch
2.)shall not suffer fr lack of self-esteem "everyone's better than me syndrom"
*note: kick my ass if i whine abt "perfect" pple fr now on.
3.)study harder, try to concentrate more intensely in class, esp econs
4.)try to read ahead
5.)try to be nicer to family members
ah well.. the litany goes on...

my spiritual health is sadly deteriorating... nietzche is screwing me up... the most disturbing thing is, i actually find myself agreeing with some of the things he said... some say he's a farce, but isn't christianity a religion fundamentally based on the concept of pity? the bible tells us to be nice to beggars cos they're poorer n everything, believe in christ cos he suffered for our sins...ie pity him cos the crown of thorns hurt etc...hiaz, well, i don't really think tt way...cos it sounds mean...(see what i mean, this is exactly his point!lack of pity=meaness!therefore refusal to be mean= wanting to pity/sympathise..) argh!!!the damn bk...

thankgdness am now reading happier fare which don't scew me up...yay! (gosh, i sound like an emotional basketcase, mood swinging in extremity)
utopia's slightly easier to get through, mainly cos it's happier (duh)...plus BR rox!!!power to "in praise of idleness" (hence title of this blog)..

ok, my mind's on quite a no. of things, attempting to shut out thoughts abt o results, which are tentatively out on fri 27/2....recurring nightmares of mrs lee handing out tissue paper to bawling crescentians.....NOOOO!!!!

please please let me be happy.
that IS too much to ask for.