“Frailty of understanding is in itself no proper target for scorn and mockery. But the unintelligent forfeit their claim to compassion when they begin to indulge in self-complacent airs, and to call themselves sane critics, meaning that they are mechanics. And when, relying on their numbers, they pass from self-complacency to insolence, and reprove their betters for using the brains which God has not denied them, they dry up the fount of pity.”
A E Houseman
Muahaha...caustic lines to keep for future reference...ie, scolding ta...childish...who cares, it's my blog.

yay, no sch today...hc's radical in this sense, experimenting w reforms n stuff eg, no o levels, no syllabus(there's this coolweek coming up where there are no classes, you can choose what you wanna learn fr courses available eg juggling, poetry writing,opera..u get e pic)....the students r not adverse to it though, staying at home and "going to sch via the internet, the wonders of modern tech"...
the ivle site is jammed now though, so i'm whiling away time waiting for others to log off so i can complete my assignments. gp assg. is pretty intresting, we had to choose to review poetry,songs,prose and movies...
the choices are cool: avril lavigne's sk8ter boi compared to wilfrid Gibson's Girl Song. for movies, they had roystan tan's fifteen, which i've been wanting to watch for THE longest time, but cos of rating problems n the fact tt it's no longer on the circuit, i missed it.so, YAY!


quite comforted that i've at least read some of the required texts before, was extremely worried that i wouldn't have even heard of the authors...
they've even included Adolescence, a poem i remember fr sec 3 mid yr lit exam!!lol...

trying to find my exam paper, so i can reuse my work again, tt's not really cheating...cos it's my work, n it can't be constituted as plagiarisation..lol.anyways, don't think i scored too high a mark on tt one ...

had a depressing talk on fri w k n r, which really screwed me up..never realised tt the class has been putting up individual facades of being happy people, to put in simplistic terms..discovered tt many are screwed badly...i mean, on medication for depression?!?! slitting one's wrists?!?! i've contemplated suicide before, but let's face it, who hasn't in this day n age...i've never really carried out my macabre fantasies before though..whether this stems from sensibility/cowardice/intergrity..i don't know.

am determined not to be influenced by them, i want to help, but it seems i'm too easily swayed, tell me a soppy tale n i empathize so much tt besides tearing, i join u in ur misery...ie. wanna commit suicide? there's a 50% chance i'll join u.largely affected my mood, to say the least. was a sullen sulk the whole wkend...this bunch is seriously wrecked, spent 1/2 surfing my first porn site, after indoctrination fr classmates who enjoy gay manga n the like...suffered fr contritions for the next few days, was so replused at myself. thankfully, i have forgiven myself by explaining tt this is a turbulent phase tt ALL teens go thru, n i shld put it behind me n move on..i hope god understands...seriously.

fortunately, regained composure after 2 hr chat w xq, so, if u're reading this, thanks! i think our calls on fri, though they take up alot of time (at least 1 hr each time, lol), are actually quite helpful.Ah, sudden outburst of gratitude to xq...betcha ur teary now...lol.

this blog had better be only read by e five people commissioned to read it..imagine the humiliation if classmates get hold of it.
argh.noooo......